Raw & vulnerable highlights from my last decade…
2010 THE BURN
Living in a glorified shed at the bottom of my parent’s garden. After a strong awakening in the Himalaya, i’d returned ‘home’ to check out “if you think you’re so enlightened go spend a week [9 months?] with your family”. i waitressed & saved money until a friend invited me to Burning Man.
The Playa was the antithesis of my small hometown. i met Sonya & stayed in a San Franciscan warehouse for 2 months to study a deep, spiritual style of EFT. On our last night, i locked myself in the bathroom & cried with joy - it was the first time in my life i felt welcome & included in a group. Back to Scotland, open to living there & teaching EFT.
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2011 LOVE
An insanely cold Scottish winter soon had me flying to the Himalaya. Two solo pilgrimages in the Himalaya at over 4,000m. Met a breatharian master who initiated me into Himalayan Crystal Quartz & gemstones.
Dated my nemesis for a month: all my ex-boyfriend’s negative traits rolled into one human being. Flew to India to meet Antoine (an ex-lover from 2005) for a chai & a chat.
Fell deeply in love & moved to wintery Quebec to be with him. Insanely challenging time navigating this new relationship in an isolated part of the world. Fell in love with fires.
Seeded Occupy Wall Street movement in NYC - supporting the meditation crew of this movement.
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2012 STABILITY
Thailand! Started teaching EFT workshops & giving lots of sessions. Housesat in Kathmandu with Antoine & deepened our movie making talents as we pilgrimaged in Nepal. 10 day vipasanna meditation. Back to Canada to spend a winter in a yurt - no running water, an outdoor bucket of sawdust as a toilet, -20C temperatures. Led meditation groups.
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2013 BOUNDARIES
Built a relationship with a wild squirrel, who nested under the yurt, as i learned French from comic books. Learned A LOT of painful lessons around boundaries through challenges involving a mental asylum in Manhattan (no, i wasn’t committed). Antoine came to visit my family in Scotland & we toured the Highlands & on to Arambol, Goa for the first time in 7 years.
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2014 SMACKDOWN
More huge challenges: best friend of 12 years stops talking to me, then a huge fight with Antoine’s father. Leading weekly women’s circles. Antoine & i start a video production company. Working together introduces a whole other dynamic & set of triggers into our relationship.
Antoine ends our relationship in Nepal & i spend 3 weeks crying myself around the Ganesh Himal mountains. Antoine & i get back together & peace returns to my system…there's nothing worse than the feeling of an unresolved soul contract. We go for another walk in the Himalaya & bump into my ex-boyfriend, Nicholas in a guest house at 4,000m (he's moved there & married a local).
i begin writing my travel stories & start making necklaces & channeling information from Himalayan Crystal Quartz. Thailand: meditation at Suan Mokh & dog-sitting in Pai.
Onto California to assist Sonya’s 3 week EFT Practitioner Training.
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2015 EARTHQUAKE
Arambol…video production company with Antoine - making more events vids, especially famous Goa Trance festivals. Continue leading EFT workshops & women’s circles. My brothers come visit me in Nepal & we plan to walk the Everest region. i get a really strong resistance to walking there & even though it causes friction stick to it & we decide to walk the Annapurna instead. A massive earthquake hits Nepal. It rocks exactly the region i cried myself through the year before. It also devastates the Everest region, where our original plans would’ve placed us. Antoine & i walk 1,000km of the Camino de Santiago…living & camping outdoors for 6 weeks, arriving synchronistically at the end on my 36th birthday. Support another EFT Practitioner in California. Sonya asks me to work remotely for her.
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2016 HEALING
Arambol, Goa…i start giving more regular EFT sessions online. i enjoy working online for Sonya & am thrilled about the first regular income since i quit my job in Advertising exactly 11 years earlier.
Antoine & i decide to live separately realising how beneficial it is for our relationship dynamic to have our own space. i hand over our True Films production company to him & focus solely on EFT.
We walk 1,000km/600miles from the Swiss Alps to Rome, with the intention of bringing the energy of the mountains back into the heart of the Vatican/church.
i’m diagnosed with a severe case of the auto-immune disease Hashimoto’s Hypothyroidism, 3 days before i board a plane to Texas to run logistics & assisting a the most intense EFT Practitioner Training to date. Within 2 months, the doctor confirms i’ve cured myself of this incurable disease using only natural methods.
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2017 DEPRESSION
After almost 6 years together, it becomes clear that Antoine & i need to graduate from our intimate relationship. We take a month celebrating our journey together. When he leaves i feel like the planet i’ve been orbiting around has left my solar system.
In northern Thailand i fall into an existential crisis, unsure of my identity and suffering greatly about the pain in the world & especially the refugee crisis. i feel depressed for several months & wonder who the fk i’ve become.
The negative energy eventually shifts naturally, as though some planets have found themselves in a more friendly alignment & suddenly i feel light again. After 17 years of travelling, i start actively calling in a home base but have no idea which country it'll be in.
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2018 DIZZY
The year begins in Pushkar, India with a love story & ego-smackdown with a Dzogchen master. Onto Arambol, Goa to develop a friendship with Antoine. Dancing, beach, friends, working remotely & giving even more sessions.
i end up travelling even more: India - Texas - Nepal - Scotland - Sweden - Amsterdam - Scotland - Portugal - Scotland - Wales - England - Texas - Slovenia - Italy - Scotland
By the end of the year, i’m SO exhausted & dizzy that i decide to break the pattern by staying in Edinburgh for the winter, following the logic that if i can survive 20 hours of darkness each day, then anywhere else will feel phenomenal.
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2019 is so full…i’ll post it as a part 2!!!
i'm sharing so much more frequently & authentically in my fb group. There's going to be SO many juicy offerings & insights...
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