A year ago I started financially supporting myself 100% from my online EFT Tapping sessions. While giving sessions is nothing new to me (a solid DECADE of experience, folks!), I’d only ever supplemented my income with sessions.

I was terrified when the safety net of my regular online job disappeared & spent a couple of weeks ridiculously stressed about money.

Feeling disconnected from yourself?

Often there’s stuff under the surface that we’re afraid to look at. It feels overwhelming, like a monster in deep, dark water which threatens to drag us down & doom us to drowning.

Welcome to shadow work, my friends.

i completed the first draft of my book

i never imagined how soul-wrenching it would be to cross that finish line! Writing a book is challenging in ways which i never anticipated.

I’m writing a book in 3 months .

I intended to write an inner cosmic adventure story “Agent Harmony & the Adventures in Consciousness” but t'was a bit too ambitious for my first book.

So I'm writing a memoir, because I thought it would be easier.

i almost died on Wednesday. Scooter meets truck. Jennifer’s skull meets asphalt. Then there was a few minutes of nothingness before consciousness decided to reanimate itself in the form of Jennifer.

It’s bringing up A LOT. Not the usual “what’s the meaning of my life?”

This is possibly the edgiest thing i’ve ever posted on social media…but here we go…

i’m doing a really fucking good job with “my” life just now.

i wish it were more acceptable to acknowledge ourselves publicly, because this whole looking to other people to validate & approve of us is just bullshit.

Some affirmations for trying times:

- I believe the universe is a friendly place with our best interests at heart.
- Even if things are (perceived to be) challenging, I trust the unfolding & the journey we're all on.

2010 THE BURN

Living in a glorified shed at the bottom of my parent’s garden. After a strong awakening in the Himalaya, i’d returned ‘home’ to check out “if you think you’re so enlightened go spend a week [9 months?] with your family”. i waitressed & saved money until a friend invited me to Burning Man.

Winter

Celebrate New Year in the Scottish Highlands stomping around fairytale forests & ancient stone circles

Rent an apartment in Edinburgh & have my own space for 2 months (after 7 months staying in other people's homes).

Fulfill a lifelong dream…

Sometimes i want to yell at Life - "THAT'S ENOUGH! Give me a break...i'm only just scraping by here!"

i felt like this yesterday morning. The plan was to spend the day celebrating a dear friend's 30th birthday. i was starting to finally feel like myself again since the accident. Dealing with all the emotional, mental & spiritual challenges since almost dying last week.

Because of how happy i generally am, combined with my work of supporting others through their healing journey, it creates this weird idea that somehow i live a life of constant joy, devoid of tears, fears, anger or grumpiness.

So i decided that a photo of my tears should be enough to dispel this myth (plus balance the happy-smilie-selfie-culture).

Trigger Warning: New Age myth busting post ahoy!

This whole thing with beating yourself up for having negative thoughts & telling yourself that you created it because of your negative mindset…well, it’s starting to irk me.

Blaming your current state on your negative thoughts & vibrations & slipping further into lower vibrations because you’re off-centre. Is it really helping?

*The truth, the whole truth & nothing but the truth.*



Over a decade ago i took an oath: to only speak the truth.

i wouldn’t have ever considered myself a liar. However, i’d often say things i didn’t mean to try to be kind to others.

Our greatest fears are being brought up from the depths of our subconscious.

And there's so much GOLD in this kind of 'shadow work' (actively looking at our fears & darkness...all the uncomfortable stuff we usually suppress in the shadow).

The greatest reward is to pierce straight through the fears…

i haven’t always loved myself. In fact for the first few decades of my life i was so entrenched in self-hatred, i’d have thought “loving yourself” meant being egotistical & thinking you’re better than others.

i’m not sure exactly when my journey with meditation began.

18 years ago when i started reading about it & tried it a few times “but nothing happened”.

Or 11 years ago when i did my first 10 day Vipassana retreat?